a step in my shoes

2003-07-18T19:40:00.000-07:00

okay, so ASB camp was soo super fun. i loved almost everything about it. swimming in the rain with lightning, rock climbing, canoe racing, playing volleyball, spirit events, shoot...even the long meetings about homecoming, freshman orientation, and master calender planning was pretty alright...watching austin powers, playing mafia, late night girl talk... it was great. i'm going to miss it so much though. the term "seniors" kept coming up the whole time though. it sounds so funny to actually be associated with that word. i told someone i didn't wanna leave high school, cuz high school (for me) has been great. i'm a "high school" type of person. i like the bonding with friends and teachers that you see on a REGULAR basis...not the..."acquaintance" type of relationship that college people say that you find once you get to college. but...maybe i'll change my mind...i haven't gotten there yet..so we'll see....depends on whether or not i go to college. anyways..i love my group. tomorrow is ASB OLD vs. ASB NEW...i'm so excited.

next order of business on the agenda: VOLLEYBALL
...i wanna play...
...i miss it...
...regretting many things...

FOOOOOD...i'm so hungry..my family is in San Diego, so I'm quite home alone until midnight...sitting..bored..watching tv..etc...eating s'mores... wow...i have the feeling like i should be doing homework...but i'm not... eh. screw it. whatelse is there to say? Ooh yeah..i have this big craving for korean food..mMmmMmmmmmmMmm..... :D

KOOBBEE.... dude. he's innocent. what's this girl trying to pull off...she wants MONEY...shoot..if i were her, i would NOT be complaining....NOT AT ALL.. ;D shoot.. i'd be his mistress anyday..anytime he comes to colorodo, i'll be there.. hahaha ... JK ..but yeah... whatever he's done.. hopefully he'll be forgiven... people should forgive him... i did. :D haha..man..u know all this talk is all fun and games. i just think he's so hot...SOOoOoOo HOT!!! Ooh, he's bald. anyways... :D i think that's it for now. i'd like to say..

HELLO to everyone!! :D bYEEe! peace out homies.

2003-07-15T00:20:00.001-07:00

lately, i've been feeling like sh*t. this past weekend was so fun though, i chilled with my cousins..we went to the San Diego zoo. monkeys that scratch that lie down and scratch their balls right in front of you are quite hilarious if you ask me. haha..good times. but when i got home from SD, wow, i felt soo sick. and i've been feeling sick for a while since then. so if ur wondering why i'm quiet or not acting the same, that's probably why. i'm so sorry if i like b*tch 24/7 during asb meetings. i really don't mean to, and i just want like..everyone to respect each other. my bad. i really am sorry. it's just..kinda hard. i hope you understand. my attitude is like..out of whack. along with feeling sick, i really think it's the sun. whatever. anyways...i feel so stressed out..like..VERY VERY..i think my body just wants to give up. anyways, on a brighter note, i'm really excited about camp though..planning homecoming and the whole year and stuff. i hope you guys are excited too. i feel like i have so much stuff to do for camp still..i feel behind, which is a very bad sign. so tonight..imma stay up for a while and..try to clear my mind and work everything out. along with that, summer school is tough. it's too much for me right now..too much reading, too much thinking ,too much time. i have to take art though, or i won't graduate. or go to college for that matter. college...eww. hmm... AP scores are coming in soon..i bet i didn't pass ANY of them.. college apps are later in the year..probably won't get in anywhere. hmm..i know all of this sounds familiar to some of you guys. i ALWAYS b*tch about college to everyone. seriously, i'm so disappointed in myself. anyways..enough of that... enough bad stuff for now.. let's move on to the good stuff... i made something..it's kinda cool..well, i think it is. hmmM..i'm just kind of afraid it might be a failure. i can't talk too much about it right now, but... ;D yeah. we'll see. uhMM..thank you NINA for IMing me...it's always nice to talk to old friends that you haven't seen or talked to in like..FOREVER.. :D thank you daniel for taking me to weinersnitzel..corn dogs..gotta love them. ur like..my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! ey...you gotta give it up okay? that's 22 SECONDS YOU COULD BE SPENDING WITH ME! ;D hehe. hmMm..thanks Howard for taking me like..EVERYWHERE. :D there's a lot of stuff i want to talk about..and i guess i will. i really LOVE seeing like..my older buddies from school. makes me happy when old ppl visit us at school. :) i miss everyone like crazy. i really need money to buy something. like..fast. shoot, and i tried saving....didn't quite reach my goal yet. :( ..job-wise, i don't have one, but i'm planning on working at the end of august and into the school year. as for volleyball, I LOVE PLAYING SO MUCH! i miss playing for school and stuff..miss the girls..miss my team...miss the competition...man..i love it! but..yeah..u know i'll always be here to support you girls right?! don't doubt that. :) i've had this really bad craving to go swimming..and seriously, i was down right ready to go swimming by myself in the middle of the night. it's so frikken hot. ugh! i have so much to do, and i think i'm just paranoid. i feel like i want to just sit and hide in my closet and cry. the stupid thing is...is that..i don't even know what the heck is going on! like.. u'll ask me why i want to cry..and honestly, i won't have an answer...because i just..TRULY dont know why. i'd like to say everything is okay... because it is. everytime i feel like this..i always say to myself that it COULD BE WORSE. because it could...and i should be thankful. i really should. and i am. so for now, i'm gonna quit complaining. i'm really looking forward to senior year....the first day of school, the late nights, chilling with friends, the events, MUN trip east coast, the dances (if i go..lol..quite..doubtful)....graduation (not that i'm wanting to get this over with)... everything..it's not..the actual event i guess...it's more like..i'm excited to share all these things and memories with my friends. it's the people. :D hmM...okay..i think this is getting kinda long, and i frikken have to study for my exam. so for now, i'm ouuut and abbouuuttt...good night, sweet dreams. ;D bye.

ps, im really freakin pist off right now because i wrote this long*Ss blog, and it got cut off in the beginning.

2003-07-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

t camp though..planning homecoming and the whole year and stuff. i hope you guys are excited too. i feel like i have so much stuff to do for camp still..i feel behind, which is a very bad sign. so tonight..imma stay up for a while and..try to clear my mind and work everything out. along with that, summer school is tough. it's too much for me right now..too much reading, too much thinking ,too much time. i have to take art though, or i won't graduate. or go to college for that matter. college...eww. hmm... AP scores are coming in soon..i bet i didn't pass ANY of them.. college apps are later in the year..probably won't get in anywhere. hmm..i know all of this sounds familiar to some of you guys. i ALWAYS b*tch about college to everyone. seriously, i'm so disappointed in myself. anyways..enough of that... enough bad stuff for now.. let's move on to the good stuff... i made something..it's kinda cool..well, i think it is. hmmM..i'm just kind of afraid it might be a failure. i can't talk too much about it right now, but... ;D yeah. we'll see. uhMM..thank you NINA for IMing me...it's always nice to talk to old friends that you haven't seen or talked to in like..FOREVER.. :D thank you daniel for taking me to weinersnitzel..corn dogs..gotta love them. ur like..my bestest buddy in the whole wide world! ey...you gotta give it up okay? that's 22 SECONDS YOU COULD BE SPENDING WITH ME! ;D hehe. hmMm..thanks Howard for taking me like..EVERYWHERE. :D there's a lot of stuff i want to talk about..and i guess i will. i really LOVE seeing like..my older buddies from school. makes me happy when old ppl visit us at school. :) i miss everyone like crazy. i really need money to buy something. like..fast. shoot, and i tried saving....didn't quite reach my goal yet. :( ..job-wise, i don't have one, but i'm planning on working at the end of august and into the school year. as for volleyball, I LOVE PLAYING SO MUCH! i mis60764
s playing for school and stuff..miss the girls..miss my team...miss the competition...man..i love it! but..yeah..u know i'll always be here to support you girls right?! don't doubt that. :) i've had this really bad craving to go swimming..and seriously, i was down right ready to go swimming by myself in the middle of the night. it's so frikken hot. ugh! i have so much to do, and i think i'm just paranoid. i feel like i want to just sit and hide in my closet and cry. the stupid thing is...is that..i don't even know what the heck is going on! like.. u'll ask me why i want to cry..and honestly, i won't have an answer...because i just..TRULY dont know why. i'd like to say everything is okay... because it is. everytime i feel like this..i always say to myself that it COULD BE WORSE. because it could...and i should be thankful. i really should. and i am. so for now, i'm gonna quit complaining. i'm really looking forward to senior year....the first day of school, the late nights, chilling with friends, the events, MUN trip east coast, the dances (if i go..lol..quite..doubtful)....graduation (not that i'm wanting to get this over with)... everything..it's not..the actual event i guess...it's more like..i'm excited to share all these things and memories with my friends. it's the people. :D hmM...okay..i think this is getting kinda long, and i frikken have to study for my exam. so for now, i'm ouuut and abbouuuttt...good night, sweet dreams. ;D bye.

2003-06-08T17:25:00.000-07:00

last night, i went to bed, thinking... (not in a sad, depressing way, like a lot of ppl seem to be doing these days), but thinking good thoughts about things. it's been real calm this past week, and i like the feeling. but then again, i'm sort of freaked out by how everything's going...it's never been this great before. :D i guess that's a good thing right? anyways, i have lots to say. it's been a long while since i've written, so here i go:

1. lakers- poor kobe. dude. i still love them. I SAY THIS NOW BECAUSE I REALLY THINK IT'LL HAPPEN: for some reason, i think kobe will get MVP next year. mark my words. ;D anyways, them not winning this year hasn't changed much. i still like them. :D

2. prom- i've never been so amazed in my life. i hope all of you guys had fun, cuz it was really fun putting prom on this year. i had fun. everyone had fun. everything was great. and the macs liked it.. ;D and that makes me happy.

3. my birthday (and everyone else's)- it seems like everyone's birthday is this month! crRaaaAzy! josie, me, pamela, jessica, butter, nisha, jason d, and i'm sure there's much much more. well, first of all, i just wanted to say thanks to everyone who made my day so special (well, you all sort of make everyday special for me)..but thank you. really. :D i really very much appreciate everything. this year, was great...because i got to spend a lot of it with all of you, and it's you guys that make me feel like i dunno...special? hehe. i guess that's the word. but anyways, thank you to my family and friends, and even teachers (haha).

it's the last thing i see before i go to bed, and the first thing i see when i wake up. thank you. :D really... thank you.

2003-05-18T22:27:00.000-07:00

if i told anyone what was going on in my head, they'd think i was crazy. if i told anyone what i know to be true, i think they'd laugh. but i know...i just know. it's kinda tough to understand. cuz...yeah..it just is. its one of those things that no one but myself would understand. it just is.

2003-04-18T11:52:00.000-07:00

how do i know this spring break is gonna be whack? hMm..well, first..i dont have a car. second, i dont have anywhere to go. third, i have a grip of homework and projects, i have to study for AP tests, i have Junior Miss practice...and my song isn't coming together all too great..i'm not happy with it...and it's pissing me off. hmMM.. whatelse? i'm going to vegas..which is alright.. i haven't gone on a vacation not related to school in a looong..very very long time. it's not like i could gamble though, so i guess that leaves me and the arcade...just me and it. lol. i dont even think my brother's going..i think he has school, so bleh...how frikken lonely. anyways, i'm leaving sunday morning after Easter Mass at 6:45..and then...i'm coming back around lunch time i believe on Monday, so it's not too long. i'd like to do a few things over break...but i dont think that'll happen. i almost know for sure it won't.. so..yeah...that is why i know my spring break is gonna suck!

so anyways, last night, i fell asleep with my kneepads on..haha.. that was like 7:30pm...i woke up at 10:30pm..went back to sleep like 10 minutes later..woke up at 7:30am..so that was like..what? about 12 hours... pretty good ey? this morning, i woke up and dropped off esther's shoes at her house..all up in my PJs, messy hair and everything..oh well.. hmm..and then i came home, watched sweet november.. oh yes..i laughed, cried, etc. all by myself..fun times..haha that's just weird me. hMm..then i sat on my computer and stared at the screen..doing absolutely nothing. everyone's still sleeping. and whatelse..hmM..oh i sat in my chair, closed my eyes, and listened to music... trying to get ideas for my song. then i sat at my piano, and played my heart out..and what did i get? a song, i'm not even happy with. ugh. so i guess i'll be working more on that. and so i'm singing in the shower..and all of a sudden water gets in my mouth..and i start choking...fun times. so now my throat's kinda iffy and yucky. whatever...i'll stick to piano. and that leads me to..now. and now is now, and i'm really bored..just wasting time, when i know i could be doing something productive, but oh well...spring break sucks.... so far.

2003-04-16T20:37:00.000-07:00

i give up.

2003-04-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY today, i had a Junior Miss informational meeting. it looks like i gotta write up a song quickstyles. i'm thinking something real jazzy..? i dunno..but hey, if my voice cracks, i'm so sorry to embarrass you. you dont have to cheer for me at all. i really feel bad because my parents were supposed to go out of state for their anniversary...and it just so happens that Junior Miss is on May 9th...and i think they're just not gonna go to arizona anymore. :( i feel bad. their tickets are non-refundable. bleh! hmm..so there are all these girls who are doing it. i really don't expect to win anything, but i think i'll be something to remember...i've never performed any of my music in front of people...kinda scary...i got the stage fright thing going on. so i dunno. but yeah..it'll be fun.. hmm.. then i came home..boo lakers lost. i went to church..came home... and i guess that's it..oh yeah...took james to wal mart..dude..what a user..just cuz....man.. i'm so pist at you, james. anyways, i think imma go do some hw..bye :D

2003-04-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY movies, movies, and more movies. hMm..okay..so Grease, Osmosis Jones, Chamber of Secrets, the Ring.... dang..thas a grip. haha...i slept through..hMm.. Grease, Osmosis Jones, and Chamber of Secrets..lol.. its okay.. i had a fun saturday. jess, jordan, and james came over. and that was that...u know..usual movie days. :D i slept kind of early..like 12:30..ey..that's pretty early. anywho..oh yeah... hMmm...pictures... hahaha... i've never really done it that way, but hey, it works. ;D haha..that was crazy funny. that's all for saturday.

2003-04-13T19:45:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY -i was kind of tired, cuz i slept late the night before..wonder why. its all ur fault. jk. :D well anyways, i was really tired at school. so much stuff to do, and i really really really really really really really am sick of school...like really. not the people, not my teachers, not really anything except for SCHOOL WORK.i just hate it so much...maybe because i have TOO MUCH. bleh! hMmm..so anyways, school was a drag..maybe because my brain's pretty exhausted from whatever thinking i actually do. but afterschool, i watched the boys vball game against...john glenn. yay..we won..once again. the game was fun..it was fast. so after, i'm waiting for my brother...waiting waiting and waiting.. man. so i walk home..and look who's sitting on the couch..my brother. haha. punk. its okay though, i think he just got home. i take a shower, get ready...Cheryl does my hair..it took real long, cuz the corn rows.. but it was really cool. thanks cheryl. okay...hMm..i picked up jordan, we scrambled to find a ride..butter took us, and we didn't get to the block until past 9:30. that's okay though. so i walk in...and there were video games everywhere (the cool driving one, of course)...i dont think i'll ever learn how to drive stick. stall. stall. and stall. haha..that would be me. dancing was fun. kinda hot though. no pictures. just a girl group one. i had my handy dandy disposable camera. yes. hehe. hMm..i had fun :D after...alex, jordan, james, and i went to taco bell. we don't know how to order food, cuz i think they got pist off...that was my fault. actually, no, that was james' fault. then....we went to my house and ate. alex left...jess came over, and we all watched grease..tight movie. we all fell asleep..i think the movie ended at 4:30..AM. i'm not sure, but jess turned off the tv, cuz we all passed out on the couches. and that was my Friday... fun :D

2003-04-07T20:03:00.000-07:00

today, i was supposed to wake up at 5:30 to do my math homework...that didn't happen. i ended up waking up at 6:55. when i had to be at school at 7:15 to meet with Mr. Mac. dangit, i was late like 5 minutes...arrgh..i feel bad. anyways, we talked, and i ended up being late to 1st period..but that's okay, i had a pass. school was alright..mr. CHS was so cute!!! the dance was so cute! so anyways, i feel like everything is coming all at once...i dont feel overloaded yet, but..i know i will...i have Junior Miss, ASB stuff for next year, PROM!!!, English, US history, and Spanish AP tests, finals, studying for everything. i have so much to do, and i also have to keep myself healthy for the next...few months. Yes, i can do it...hopefully. it doesn't help that i keep procrastinating, and playing games online..lol jk. its all good though. i think junior year so far...is so super fun. despite all the work, i've managed to grow up a little bit? see different things, travel, meet new ppl, keep in touch with old ppl, and realize who my real friends are. i think that all these things are very important, and i think there's more in store for the rest of the year. :D so i'm trying to keep myself optimistic. okay, so other than that..everything seems to be okay, or at least..i know they WILL BE okay. and i think it's this time of the year...where you just gotta be there to help everyone..cuz everyone gets real stressed out 3rd quarter... including myself... so friends..are definitely important ;D right? hMm.. well i gotta go forreal so like..peace out. hehe..u know.

2003-04-06T22:20:00.000-07:00

hMM..so i'm feeling a lot better today..just a bunch of cough and flem today..no more headache or whatever.. (probably because the lakers are so hot and they won today..crazy fun game) i haven't started my homework though, and i dont plan to do it..until like 12:00, as usual. so today, i went to church at Pius at 12:15...came home, ate some goldilocks spaghetti, went to the mall..shopped by myself..then jessica, the greatest ever, came and kept me company. i swear i'm a bad shopper or something, cuz i can't find the right skirt...bleh! hmM.. i came home, slept... watched the laker game.. ate again (eww) took a shower, chatted?! online.. waiting for nothing...so bored..whatever. i'm so PMSy (if that's even a word) this weekend.... but then again, i think i was PMSing last week too. UGH! whats wrong with me? okay..enough of that. i'm done. see ya. bye

2003-04-05T22:51:00.000-08:00

so anyways, today was mother-daughter bonding day. i took my SAT I today at Valley Christian..didn't bring a sweater, and now look at me: SICK (w/ SARS) ..man.. well, i got home, and my mom starts staring at my face..she can't stand my bushy eyebrows so she says "get them done today!" so then i drive over to that Indian place, and the lady there goes "u need to come in more often"...you see, my technique is to grow them out until they're long so that they'll actually have something to thread off.. u know what i mean? so i'm there, sitting there..and it hurts like a mother..seriously. and good geeze, can the lady NOT spit in my face. oh wait, she didn't spit..she dropped the stupid thread...which was drenched in her saliva all over my face... dUdE..and u wonder why i'm sick?! anyways...she told me not to grow them out anymore..cuz it's too hard and too much to take off... (she's getting paid to take the hair off my eyebrows..so imma grow them as long as i want...I am giving HER the money..not the other way around..so don't tell me how long my eyebrows can and cannot be, lady....SHOOT) anyways, i'm kinda acting anal right now...bleh..feeling very...yucky. after the eyebrows got done, my mom helped me look for a skirt for sadies... hMm... didn't find one... but i'm thinking about bleeching one of my old skirts...we'll see.. after burlington, we went to target...and bought some stuff.. then after that, i took my mom to have a manicure and pedicure...slept in the car while they took forever and a day just to finish her nails...came home...blah blah blah..ate dinner with my family at a thai restaurant..the food was great at the moment, but right when i got back home..i wanted to throw up.. (SARS) ...went out with the 3Js, 2M's, and 1C. yup..just for an hour cuz my mom wouldn't let me stay out longer than that...i'm sick. so now i'm home..blah blah blah blah blah...all angry and stuff...not at anything in particular... and i think imma clean my room and then get some rest..cuz i need it. tomorrow, i think, will be my last chance to go sadies shopping before sadies..so i must go...and shop..til i drop...cuz i already got the top..but i dont have the bottom, so now, i just gotta go shop til i got 'em...hahahaha..acting retarded (symptom of SARS)...ey..first my aunt said i have SARs, and now James won't even sit next to me..cuz he thinks i got it too...bleh! anywho, gotta go forreal this time.

2003-04-04T21:44:00.000-08:00

okay..FINALLY i blog..after like..how many months now. first of all, my day, despite a few things, was great. to start it off, i didn't have much homework last night...so that was kinda cool. then...after school today (and much drama, i might add..) i went to the boys vball game...man...guys vball rocks socks...seriously..it was quick and to the point, and we won...giving artesia a total score of 7 points in 3 sets. good job guys. after they kicked serious butt, i watched them play around a little after we cleaned up.. hMm..i left there around 6ish and then started feeling sick. :( definitely not a good thing.. but at least it's now instead of next week, right? and then i accompanied jessica to pick up her grandma in pasadena...and didn't get home from that until around 8:30. so jed calls me and is like "KOBE MADE THE GAME WINNING SHOT"...and that makes my day even better! and then i come home and watched the delayed version on tv...lakers win...again! now it's time to study cuz i'm taking the SAT's tomorrow at Valley Christian...and after that... it's time to go shopping...for the fifth time probably..but that's okay :D so right now, i'm feeling kind of..bleh...sick, but content... so i think i gotta go study now...BYE FOR REAL THIS TIME! ...hehe..imma say that from now on...cuz it's soo gangsta.

2003-02-02T21:15:00.000-08:00

so yesterday, it was mom and aunt's birthday party at my house...probably the 4th or 5th party in my house...this year! all 3 "J's" came over....jessica, james, and jordan...something that hasn't happened in a very very long time. hmm..we didnt know what to do for the longest time, but i guess since we haven't really chilled in like..forever and a day, it was a pleasant get together. they left at around 4 or 4:30 am, and i slept a few minutes after that...ugh..and i woke up..to the most disgusting thing...i can't say why i woke up, but..ugh..DISGUSTING! so since i didn't get much sleep, i felt really tired...i ate at mcdonalds, worked on my nationals position paper, went to church, and went out to eat at a sushi bar with my parents, jed, and cheryl. good food! so that was my day in a jiffy...soOoO..have a great day! :D bye!

2003-01-25T20:42:00.000-08:00

i've never felt so ugly in my life as i do right now...as if people have to constantly remind me just to prove their point...and as if i don't already know...

2003-01-01T22:18:00.000-08:00

today, i slept all day!!! and went to auntie ruby's house and ate dinner. that's it! now, imma go do some homework..ARrGh..vacations are not long enough!!!!!!!

2003-01-01T22:17:00.000-08:00

12.31.02 tuesday- party at my house! duh! haha..anyways, i spent it with my family..and jessica IS my family..cuz i spent it with her too. my house was an "old couples kissing fest" ..lol..eWwW.. jk. but we had some good food, and kids everywhere, and cousins everywhere and just family everywhere. i love my family. so here are my new years resolutions in no particular order: [1] concentrate more on school (which means taking out all the distractions in my life ie: computer, boys, tv, etc. [2] make sure i go to Church more often [3] hang out more with my gang (my 2nd family)..haha..u know who [3] keep my room clean [4] write 24 songs [5] have fun at NY and Nationals

2003-01-01T22:10:00.000-08:00

12.30.02 monday- SNOWBOARDING!! funnest thing ever. i've never enjoyed getting hurt so much in my life...hehe. we got to the mountain after getting rentals and such at around 9:30. rentals cost: $25..but i bought gloves because my hands were freezing so that was another $10. then whole day lift tickets cost $50. so that day, i spent $ 85. I couldn't get up from the snow at first, but i got the hang of it after my first run, and after eating it up the *sS like...so many times! haha...but yeah..at the end of my first run, i was like "dang, this is fun!" so after the first run, we ate lunch, and then...i went for another run, and i fell only a few times, which is pretty cool, except for the fact that when u get the hang of it and u go kinda fast, ur bound to fall even HARDER. so even though i fell less, i fell HARD...i ate it in the face this time...and my board and my legs kept turning and moving, but my upper body was stuck in the snow, so when the board turned, i heard my ankle go "CraAcK!"...not a good thing ;O oh well, i'm arrite now. so i go on my 3rd run, and i'm freakin tired, so i take it kinda slow, but i barely fell..just the time i knicked the edge of someone's ski and it sent me flying and spinning in the snow. haha. dang i suck, but man..i had sooo much fun. after my 3rd run, i was so tired...so that was it for me. we took pictures in the snow. then drove back to eat corn dogs and chili fries, then back to corona. man..let me tell u, driving up the mountain was sooo freakin bad!! i got soo car sick i almost threw up, so on the way back down the mountain, i forced myself to sleep..so i was A-oK! hehe. then in Corona, i took a shower, everyone left, but jed fell asleep so i just chilled and watched Signs...then we left and got home around 1 or 2 am.

2003-01-01T22:00:00.000-08:00

12.29.02 Sunday- we woke up, took showers, ate breakfast, went to this shopping center by the beach, ate ben and jerry's, took pictures, then after, we made our way to this carnival type place, and then went to an arcade, and then played DDR (..hehe) and it began to rain, so we left and began our second mission...more scavenger hunt type things..no more car rally. so we took pictures with strangers, got a stranger's cup from starbucks, did a cartwheel at home depot, and othe random stuff, and made our way to Corona. That took all day, because we ended up eating dinner at Laurie's house at 9:30ish. Laurie, Marites, and I went to pick up the dessert we ordered from cucina cucina, this restaurant near ontario mills, and for all 17 of us...the total was around $102.67 i think? good geeze, that is soo much money spent on dessert..but oh well, it was YUMMY dessert. and plus, we used the left over money we raised from the $660 total. i ordered semi-freddo..which is vanilla ice cream with toffee pieces in it. and then i poured a few teaspoons of coffee on it..OoOoh yumm! ;D hmm...then we all took showers and slept like at 3:00 am...too bad we had to wake up at 4 or 4:30..and leave by 5..cuz we had to leave for the mountains at 5. that's it for this day.

2003-01-01T21:53:00.000-08:00

12.28.02 saturday- we began in cypress, and ended up in san diego. we received our first mission in the morning- scavenger hunt plus car rally. we also did our role call cheers and found out the names of the other teams and such and ate breakfast at Christian's house. then after, we began our mission. so we drove and drove and drove and found clues and made sure we were at the right place and took pictures for evidence that we were there got sugar packets from here, ketchup packets from there, people's signatures, etc. it was soo fun. all the clues led us up to chula vista, san diego. we slept in cabins that looked like lincoln logs...pretty nice. we cooked dinner outdoors (semi-real), and then we were all kinda tired so we slept in our blankets and sleeping bags in bunk beds.

2002-12-31T17:20:00.000-08:00

fun.

12.27.02 friday - so the whole day, i sit around the house thinking abouit how i should be packing for the road trip. our CCC group meeting was at 8 o'clock at Christian's house. and so i basically didn't do anything until about 2 o'clock..i finally decide to pack at 4 o'clock..that should give me enough time. but dang, i fell asleep and didn't wake up until 6. so i had to hurry and get everything together. Then we met at Christian's house and the two teams met to make up their names and roll call chants. my team: Ohana the other team: Af (8) Wonders of the World. then we split, my team slept at my house and the other team slept at Christian's house. My team watched Ice Age and Bad Company then slept.

2002-12-26T21:27:00.000-08:00

Christmas this year was great. Thank you to EVERYONE..not just for the presents..but for your love...because Christmas just isn't Christmas without all of you and the love. :D Hmm..so this year, Christmas Even was at Michelle's house...because it's Auntie Yvette's birthday also. we just sang carols and played the piano for a while to raise money for our CCC Road Rules/Fear Factor trip which begins tomorrow. oh yeah, and we ate before that..some yummy food..my dad cooked turkey with hawaiian punch. and then..hm.after the singing, we passed out presents... mucho fun. KRYSTLE was my Secret Santa..she tricked me because one day, she called me and asked me to go online for her to check her person's wishlist....sneaky sneaky! i had NO clue! ..hm.. THANKS KRYSTLE!! i love my Kobe pillow, nerd ropes, curious george memory box, gloves, sheet music paper, binder, alicia keys & faith hill sheet music, scarf (ur very first one), and "D" sign...am i forgetting anything? hmm..THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I LOVE THEM! :D hmm...so i spent a lot of time with family this week..and tomorrow we will be going on our trip..more quality family time.. FUN! ... hmm... okay..on to today. Today, I cleaned up a little..stayed home..etc. just home stuff..with my bro and dad and mom. today, i was being really nosey...lol. I was in my parents room and found their letters that they used to write to each other..cuz..well, my dad moved to the US from the PI when he was 18..and he visited back and forth. and he met my mom..but my mom lived in the PI. so, they had a long distance relationship... but that's besides the point...so anways..my dad wrote my mom and my mom wrote my dad...for a few years..and they both saved all their letters..so next to my parents' bed, i saw a whole bag full of letters....well, 2 bags (one had the letteres my mom wrote to my dad and the other contained the letters my dad wrote to my mom)..and..being nosey, i decided to peak. eEeeK! ....i said i was only gonna read 1 letter, but I couldn't help it! haha..so i went on and on and read letters here and there...dude...talk about lovey dovey! i never knew 2 people could be soo...into each other! wtheezy... haha...anyways, it was nice. they used to talk like teenagers...all sneaky and stuff.. haha. well, yeah...hmm..k moving on, my family and i ate soon doo boo at the Tofu place...i got my family into eating more korean food these days..i love it! then during dinner, i asked them if it was okay if i could read their letters..and they were like "sure." so then..i told them that i already read it!..lol...but then it came back to bite me in the butt because my mom was like "oh it's okay, i read your's too." wTheeZY! dude..WHAT LETTERS!? i'm afraid!!!!! haha..because...i think i wrote letters..and never gave them to people and hid them... (i like to hide things in my room) but SOMETIMES I FORGET WHERE I PUT THEM!!!! ....dude...i wonder what my mom read!!! anyways... i swear i'm so embarrassed! hmm... good geeze! haha.. okay, then i came home...and then..sang kareoke with my mom and dad...fun stuff! and then now is now...i think imma clean my room and put up the cool picture frames i received. :D so.. on a very happy note, i just wanna wish everyone HAPPY CHRISTMAS and MERRY NEW YEARS!

2002-12-24T00:48:00.000-08:00

every year, i always get the best secret santas! ...not because of their gifts or anything like that..but everyear, i always get someone that i just love soooo much..like CRAZY SOO MUCH! this year, for our friends' secret santa, Cameron had me...HE'S THE BEST! i miss him so much... thank you for the LAKER CALENDER, CHUCKS, and PAUL FRANK PJ'S!!! I LOVE THEM!...but more importantly...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ..i can't wait until you come back home. hm..so ..the party was pretty fun..(thanks ryan for letting us crash there)...food was great..and friends are just soo great..i love them all! I LOVE CHRISTMAS! k..time for me to go.. :) see ya!

2002-12-23T11:01:00.000-08:00

uhm..okay..i think the last week of school can be summed up as: STRESSFUL. but enough of that..i was so happy when the old seniors came to visit!!!! like really really happy!!!! i miss them sooo super duper much... this is who i saw: phil, camille, danton, terry, andy, hana, aileen, brandon, marc, etc. man...i miss them like crazy!!!! :( anyways, since school ended, i haven't done much. on saturday, i went to the asb Christmas banquet at jenny (from the block..haha)'s house. it was alright...asb bonding is always fun. :D Scott was my Secret Santa. I'm so glad he got me...only because..SCOTT IS SOO COOL! anyways, i will be watching the Clippers vs. Timberwolves game on January 15th with Scott...mucho fun! then..i left early with aya...just because. hm..so anyways, i got home..and talked to daniel yi....haha...i'm surprised he could put up with all the sh*t i talk to him about..all my complaints and whines and stuff...mostly about how sucky i am doing in school and about how i'm not gonna go anywhere after i graduate (if i graduate..haha) from cerritos. hmm..and then..on Sunday, what did I do? nothing at all. well, actually, i just decorated the tree (wow ;D ) it looks pretty nice..mostly my dad's creative ideas and stuff..so me and my dad decorated the tree. and then after, my brother and my dad put up the lights, while i watched the Laker game...man..i was gonna have a heart attack. i was all yelling at the tv, refs, players, etc. luckily, it seemed like they heard me cuz they eventually won...phew! man..Cat and Jess know how I am when a game is on..cuz they've been on the phone with me...and i'm all screaming....my lungs off..literally. it's kinda amusing. and then...my whole family and I watched literally 3 of 4 movies the rest of the night, and we all fell asleep on the couches. and that was that.

today, i need to buy my '04 Secret Santa's present with my Dad, pick up my glasses from Kaiser, cook, shower, do last minute shopping, and also get my CCC (cool cousin's club) Secret Santa's present too...mucho fun, but no tengo dinero..i don't really have money..hence..i'm "going WITH my dad". and that's all folks, so i will blog later. bye!

2002-12-18T19:04:00.000-08:00

awkward. u know when you tell someone your deepest secrets...your thoughts..your feelings... and then somehow it comes back to bite you in the butt...and it seems like it bit you just enough to push you back down... well..yeah... awkward.

2002-12-18T19:02:00.000-08:00

i don't know what's wrong with me. but, i've seen to have fallen and am having trouble picking myself back up these days. everything seems so blah and blurry to me..and i can't just figure out quite what i'm feeling these days. what i DO know for sure..is that, i am so very tired of many things at this point..and that is why, i can't wait to spend some time with my family..who i haven't seen in a long time...and some time to myself also during break. and to be quite honest, i don't think i will make it through this week.

2002-12-18T18:59:00.000-08:00

exhausted...and most definitely lost.

2002-12-14T01:47:00.000-08:00

oh heck no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST FINISHED A REALLY LONG BLOG, AND IT JUST CLOSED! wTHeck!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways...i'll sum up my last blog.
1) school was great
2) it was nice talking to jon ma today..it's been a while..some stuff was revealed to me...and...it's kinda interesting...IN A BAD WAY. x(
3) i dont think i'll summarize this one..cuz it's really important... okay first of all... i'm not trying to lecture anyone... but i really just have to speak my mind. (excuse my bad language yeah?! i'm just really riled up right now) sh*t-talkers who don't know sh*t should just keep their mouths closed...because it's not very nice....but really..the funny part is..when the friends of the "sh*t-talker" tells you everything "he/she" says about you..it's kinda funny....or more so, ironic seeing that "his/her" OWN friends tell you EVERYTHING "he/she" says... it kinda makes you feel like "wow, "he/she's" OWN friends are on my side"...but i know it's not really a "who's side are u on" issue..it's more of a "do the right thing" issue. sorry it's really hard to explain..but moral of the story: "don't talk sh*t about people you don't even know...because 1. it makes you look bad. 2. word gets around. 3. it's simply just not nice. ;D and plus....no one has the right to talk about anyone else..unless they KNOW them...and UNDERSTAND where the person is coming from..i don't like when people are too ignorant to find out how others are before talking smack.
4) MUN bowling was fun!!! ;D high five girls! the teams were: Lane 29- Hannah, Berry, Nisha, and Me. Lane 30- Jessica, Anisha, Yina, and Josie....man they whooped on us the first game..but no worries we got them back! :) it was mucho fun though because we all bonded and got closer.. ;)
5) my brother's home..and it's nice to have him around.
6) i have soo much shopping to do!!!!! TOO MUCH! with NO MONEY!!! :( no tengo dinero.
7) i still have to work on my position papers and do homework..bummer!
8) Christmas break is coming..i'm so excited!
9) i really do love everyone! so have a nice day!

2002-12-11T21:23:00.000-08:00

today was pretty okay. school is W-H-A-C-K..i mean..don't get me wrong, i love school and the people and everything..i just feel so stupid...like i just can't absorb all that info my teachers are giving me, and it's driving me nuts! so..winter formal is coming up... and..BLAH! anyone feel like going clubbing with me on January 19th? lol... dances creep me out for some reason, but u know what's kind of awesome, i've had fun at every single dance i've gone to EXCEPT for my sophomore year's homecoming..go figure. sOoooOo..i can't wait until Sadies comes around..since sadies was so great last year.. ;D and i hope everyone else had fun too..but yeah... man..i remember last year... i wasn't sure who i was gonna ask...haha..but dang, i had a grip load of fun. more fun than stress. u know, i totally understand all the stress and trama guys go through when they want to ask a girl to a dance... but dude..the nervousness would be all worth it..right? right. maybe for this upcoming sadies, i won't have to...hitchhike and squish into a car because i am a "non-driver"...lol...or maybe i'll have enough money to buy a WHOLE MEAL instead of cheating and ordering from the KIDSMEAL. ..haha..good times... and dude...does anyone know how much I REALLY WANNA GO TO DISNEYLAND....SOOOOOOOOOOOOON...good geeze...that was super fun. :D right guys!? uhhhmm...okay..well, i'm gona stick firm with my deal right here and right now: I WILL FINISH ANNOTATING MY BOOK BY DECEMVER 20TH! ..i just have to put that in writing so that i could push myself. Man..i think times are tough for a few of my friends....broken hearts, etc.. but u know what, time heals most things, and you guys can only take from the experience(s) and learn..correct? i'm no pro at relationships...but..trust me, i think everything will be alright... so just..keep ur heads up..and don't be like me..don't do stupid things and get urself into trouble. :D anways...i think i'll write more a little later..sEe ya...btw...i know something you don't know. ...i dunno if that's good or bad...but it seems to make people curious and annoyed... :D wondering what it is? anyways..gotta jet (only losers say 'gotta jet') ..see ya later alligator.

2002-12-08T22:01:00.000-08:00

i'm blogging again finally. i think i just got too lazy, cuz..i dunno... anyways, the Lakers kicked dallas' butt on Friday...best game ever. (i don't like it when people rub it in my face when the Lakers lose, so at school, i won't even rub it in all those "Laker Hater Bandwagons'" faces...all i will do is smile, and you'll know what i'm talking about ;D) i'm so stupid..because i didn't get to watch it at all...u can ask me about it later. this week was really stressful..i think because i've done a lot of bad stuff. especially with school and yeah... but i'm glad everything got worked out with the whole "school situation". uhmm..yesterday i had a headache, and i didn't feel too well..Arrgh..and i had so much time in the world to do my homework and projects and position papers for mission viejo...but because i had a stupid headache...i couldn't concentrate, so i ended up resting and sleeping, and when i woke up, i slept in and watched movies on my tv since there seems to be endless movies these days. i woke up, did a little homework. then i went with michelle to the library and read a little APUSH..and then after that we went to the korean market to eat inside the sushi bar..man..i think i've converted from my favorite food being italian to my favorite food being korean..yUm yUm, i LOVE IT! umm whatelse. oh, i'm sort of noticing something, and i can't say just what it is because i could be wrong, but i'm pretty sure i'm right, but whatevers clever. i think all i have to say about that is good luck? hmm... Ooh and one more thing...i feel really sad because i feel like i dunno....i think i keep too many emotions inside, but i think it's better than saying anything outloud because if i did share all my feelings with the entire world, good geeze, i think i'd cause too much drama with my friends...i guess it's cuz i feel like i'm being accused of something that would sooo obviously never be true. can't really say what it's about, but..yeah..i think i'll just forget about it. that would make everything all good in the hood. lol. man, this you know how these blog things are supposed to be for myself and for my own thoughts and for my own keeping? it doesn't serve it's purpose because i just can't express EVERYTHING or else..EVERYONE would know my deepest thoughts... but for now, it's pretty fun to blog since i'm too lazy to actually write things in a diary. hmm...okay i really love the Christmas spirit, it's just that money-wise, I AM BROKE AS A JOKE...man i have like crazy a grip of secret santas to buy stuff for...plus my own friends, and i wish i could just buy everyone something, but i'm not a tree of money, and i can't..and it makes me mad that....i dunno..i'm just going on and on and on and blabbering about nonsense...but one thing is for sure..i'm really glad Christmas is coming around..although things are busy these days, it seems as if people are happy. one more thought... i'm gonna miss Cameron...so friggen much..good geeze. oh yeah...2nd one more thought LAKERS KICKED JAZZ'S BUTT TODAY! 101-110 thank you very much!

2002-11-22T22:42:00.000-08:00
just one more thing...LAKERS ROCK! THEY WON TODAY! WOOHOO!!!!!! SHAQ'S BACK..AND KOBE'S ON FIRE! YAY!!!....I LOVE ANISHA TOO! FEEL BETTER! ;D

2002-11-22T22:31:00.000-08:00
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NANA! Thank God It's Friday! man..i'm sorta tired of school...the good thing is that i've been working out lately..but the bad thing is that i get home from the gym, and i'm crazy tired to study. well, anway...i'm glad it's Friday. ASB B lost Club Volleyball Finals today, but that's okay, the game was freaking fun, and we only lost by 2 points to JNHS. Afterschool, i cleaned the ASB room with Michael Moon, and even James helped out too. Then, James and I walked to my house, to chill for like 15 minutes, then my brother took him home. My dad, mom, brother, and I watched 007 Die Another Day like at 4:20 at the mall...the movie was pretty interesting...yet confusing...corny, yet amusing. so..it was all in all a good movie :D...i'd say it's worth about $6.50.... dang, that was the first movie i watched in a very very very long time..probably like.. 2 months or so? yEAH! THAT LONG! ... so it was kinda cool to go watch a movie today. Then after my family and I had dinner at Black Angus, and just talked about random stuff...we talked about FOBS, and then my parents were laughing. hmm...when i got home, all my relatives were parked in my driveway...and automatically i thought to myself "it's gonna be another 'mah jong' night"... so as of now, they're playing mah jong.. probably until the morning. and then I drove my aunt's new benz to buy a few phone cards and some diet coke for my aunties and uncles..and then when i got home, we all called my grandmother in the Philippines to greet her Happy Birthday.. ;D i miss her mucho! it's been a year and a half since i've seen her... cuz u know when u have ur bad days..and all u have to do is chill with ur grandparents..and they make things all better...it's times when i act like a baby that i miss having her to hold me and tell me stories and make me feel all better...lol..geeze louise, i'm talking like a little girl (i still am i think?!) hmm...okay..and i think i'm gonna study now. Tomorrow, I have an orthodontist appointment in the morning, and then I have Project Diversity practice. :D i hope we win project diversity this year, but if we don't..it's okay..it was sure fun making it! :D okie doke, enough for now.. bye!

2002-11-21T22:33:00.000-08:00
HHHHHHHHMMmmm..yesterday, we worked on project diversity, bagged candy for our Prom Committee Candy Sale, watched Veggie Tales, and watched the American Idol dvd....what a blast! today, was...great! i'm alive..and i guess it's all good right? so, school was alright, ASB B is going to the Finals for Club Volleyball! and ASB A is going to the FINALS for the losers bracket! high five! :D my money is soo going down the drain..it seems like everytime i actually get some, it's always being spent on school stuff OR food! gEeZe..how will i save up enough money to go snowboarding next month!? okay well...afterschool, i went to the library with Katie, this one freshman that I tutor for math, and then after, Michelle and I went to my house to change..and then her house to change and then we went to Bally's! Her and I decided that since we do have memberships to the gym which are muy expensivo, we might as well use them on a regular basis right? so these days, we plan on going three times a week whenever time permits..cuz i feel so friggen out of shape....and YEAH! so i feel good now that i worked out a little bit. hmm...okay..then i came home, took a shower....and...now is now. :D so i'll write more later..byEEEeEEe!! ps...i hope anisha feels better!!! :D if i could carry you all day around school, i would! just so ur foot won't hurt! ;D

2002-11-18T18:10:00.000-08:00
JULY 7, 2003!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i HAVE TO REMEMBER THIS DATE!!! LIKE HAVE TO HAVE TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 12:00 pm... REMIND ME WHEN THE DATE COMES!!!! STARBUCKS @ CERRITOS TOWNE CENTER.....I HAVE TO REMEMBER...!!!!

2002-11-18T17:59:00.000-08:00
favorite person of the day: edward kim (thanks for taking me home today) school was the same routine...same stuff...gRrr..junior year is a drag. in club volleyball today, fbla didn't show up so then, asb b just won by default. hmm..then afterschool, i went to work out with michelle. it was really nice cuz we haven't really chilled or talked much in a very very long time, and it was nice getting caught up a little bit... and so we went to bally's ran, used the machines for a little bit..then ran again..and we decided we were gona work out 2 or 3 times a week on a regular basis from now on. :D i feel good. then after we went to guppy teahouse and i treated michelle to some watermelon boba. yUmmY! :D hehe... OOoh today, i ate my nerd ropes.........YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.... i gotta buy some more...!!!!!!! it's my most favoritest candy in the world..u don't even understand :D it makes me happy! hmm..okay anyways...michelle dropped me home, and so now at my computer talking to Daniel Yi and Justine Lopez about random things. i think these are the 2 thoughts of the day: #1: Don't do anything you'd regret. #2: Sometimes you just have to take risks...u don't want to miss out and think "what could have been?"...just take the risk and learn. hmm..i guess i'll eventually write more later. bye for now!

2002-11-17T19:42:00.000-08:00
today...I FOUND THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY GOSH...I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR THEM EVERYWHERE!!! (you'll know what i mean later in the blog) ...so anyways...last night i slept at 3:30 pm (thanks daniel yi :P ) anyways...i woke up really tired, so i decided to bum it on the couch and watch a movie...so i decided to watch 40 days and 40 nights...man..josh hartnett is soo dang hot! he's like..tied for #2 on my list..yah..u all know who #1 is! ;D the storyline was pretty whack..it was all about sex this and sex that....the only thing that made it an 'okay' movie was the fact that IT WAS JOSH HARTNETT! and then at around 10:15 in the morning, my aunt calls and asks me if i want to watch the clipper game...so i say yeah..and me and my mom go with my aunt and her boyfriend to watch the clipper game today at 12:30 at the staples center. We had $120 tickets, seventh row behind the Seattle bench. Ugh..Seattle. but who cares....i could see their faces and everything...coolest ever! it was such an exciting game...cuz they were up by 15, but then...Seattle caught up and then eventually beat the Clippers..but it's okay, i'm not much of a Clipper fan...i cheer them except when they're actually playing AGAINST the lakers, so you can't call me a "true Clipper fan"...the funniest thing ever is that we walked around the staples center, and my mom bought me a "Lakers' #1 Fan" magnet that had my name on it and everything...lol...who goes to the Clipper game and comes out of the game holding Laker stuff.....me! Oh yes! So the Laker game is playing right now..everyone should watch...! :D hmmm....okay..then after we went shopping at Macy's in Pasadena, and my aunt bought me a bag..for Christmas... and then... we ate at In 'N' Out. YumMMy! Then I came home...and left my house again...I drove to Wal Mart just now so I could buy a volleyball for my coach for the banquet which is this coming Tuesday....ANNNNDDDD...WHAT REALLY MADE MY DAY!!! WAS THE FACT THAT....... i found NERDS ROPES!!!!! ...my favorite candy!!!!!!! :D that made me so happy because i bought them a long time ago from wal mart..like in september...and ever since i could never find them....and then..i finally found them again in Wal Mart today..which was soooo great!!!!!! :D k..weird me is talking jibberish once again, so i'll end my blog here... oh yeah..one more thing, if you're name is DANIEL...you are REALLY REALLY COOL! :D k time to go back to reading my APUSH book... later alligator.

2002-11-16T17:38:00.000-08:00
one more thought.....daniel kim.... ur awesome... :D (thanks for dropping by....*just because*...i love those kinds of friends)

2002-11-16T17:32:00.000-08:00
okay, i made a new blog cuz something was wrong with my old one..gRr.. anyways...today i am sooo BLOATED! ..haha i don't know how to spell. anyways....i'm sure you wanted to know that. but yah...just a piece of advice, never go to Hometown Buffet when you're about to be on your rag...there's no point in grubbing if ur not even interested in food. i lost my appetite...cuz of my dang period! wtheCK! and like...yuck! haha. well, today, i almost got into a car accident cuz my mom was like "turn left!" so i had to turn left really quick, and then it was my bad cuz i didn't check my blindspot! GRrRr to myself! I can't wait til January when I get my insurance...so i'll feel a little safer driving. last night...on a FRIDAY NIGHT!!... i SLEPT from 7:30-12:00 then from 1:00 to 9:30... u know how much sleep that is?! i don't know what's wrong with me.. and then i've had this sudden urge to study a grip lately...but everytime i crack open a book, i end up falling asleep 3 minutes later..no joke! i miss my volleyball season...i miss playing...GeEze LoUisE.. i wanna play again..but i'm still thinking about whether or not i wanna try out next year... and plus, like..yeah..i NEED to start going to the Bally's once again because..once my season started, i stopped going, but now that my season is over..i need to start working out again or else i'll feel more like a flat plump of blubber sitting on the couch watchin tv, staring into space. man..these days, i feel like i have so much time...which is such a good thing...but now that i have so much time, i don't use it wisely...i get too much sleep these days....AND too much time gives me too much time to think...and too much thinking hurts my brain so much...i start drifting off about different things..and it's SOOOO BAD FOR ME! ....yikes... OooH...and then i don't think my parents are gonna be too happy with my first quarter grades.....EEEek!! not a good thing!! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! desserts spelled backwards is stressed (thanks daniel)....and that is EXACTLY WHAT I AM!...STRESSED! ...i don't even know what i'm stressing about....i just feel stressed.. :) or...more like..stressed, but content :D hehe.. arrite..i'm talking jibberish now, i'll get back to my blog later. bye!